How I Came to Know

HOW I CAME TO KNOWby Brother Jason

Greetings and Peace be upon you my brothers and sisters of the Straight Way.

My name is Brother Jason Rutherford. Currently incarcerated for my transgressions of the flesh, but free in the Spirit in that even though my body is physically locked down, there is no handcuffs upon the wrists of my soul, Praise be to God.

A Spiritual awakening manifested it’s peak within the confines of my flesh on September 26, 2012. It did not occur overnight. Instead it was a years long work in progress that began ruffly around the same time, only 12 years past on September 11, 2000.

It was a transformation that at first was unknown to me. I thought that I might be going insane. I tried medication but something inside of me would reject these pills. I began to experience visions of things long past. Civilizations, and people unknown to me.

A new revelation presented itself in the form of greater understanding and an excelerated learning ability. This came as a great shock in that I was told that I had a learning disability. Plus I had been a drug addict for many years and I had thought that the lights had long gone out in my brain.

I began to have a huge craving for knowledge. Mostly biblical stuff even though at the time I was an Atheist/Agnostic. The idea of a Supreme Being was a joke to me. Even despite the experiences occurring within me were unusual, sometimes supernatural, I refused to except a Divine explanation to it all.

Nevertheless, amidst all the confusion, I continued on. I read the entire Bible in 3 months and that was only because I was also reading Tolstoy’s War and Peace, and a book written by Erik Hoffer about mass movements. I read a large portion of the Quran, Te Tao Ching, and Sun Tzu’s Art of War.

I took my GED after 2 months of classroom study and passed with high scores. In the proceeding years, I would start to develop a higher sense of purpose. My mind seemed crystal clear, my body was in top physical condition. I would set goals for myself and achieve them soon after. And withal the visions I was receiving in dreams, I began to twist them all around and turn them into a story. I wrote over a thousand pages of this story until once I was at the last Chapter, I got struck with severe writer’s block . . . To this day, that book remains unfinished.

I was missing the point. The Divine Presence was not giving me all these gifts just to continue in my atheism and pursuit of alien government conspiracies, NO! I was being prepared for a very special mission. Whatever that mission was, was not yet clear. Because I had no sense of spiritual understanding. No idea of things esoteric. Sadly, I would lose complete sight of it all, and engage in many more years of self destruction and criminal behavior that finally brought me to where I’m at today.

I am being charged with Federal Bank Robbery. I know I might spend several years in prison. I am very well prepared to do that very thing. I am prepared because I know what true incarceration is. My brother Victor (Peace Be Upon Him) once wrote me in an e-mail encouraging me to view my incarceration in a positive light since all of us are imprisoned in the flesh.

Victor is absolutely right. We are all prisoners in the flesh. Our true freedom occurs when we return to the sublime-One once our soul joins in union with its looming angel that is the divine spirit that we all have the ability to become a part of.

My body being in prison cannot detur me from achieving my goal. It will not stop me from learning the hidden wisdom necessary in graduating from one grade to the next. To most of these men and women who are confined in places like this, it becomes a living hell. An endless nightmare. They want to go home. They want to go back to the ones they loved and they sware it will all be different, but who is it their trying to fool?

One is willing to exchange one prison for another if they are spiritually dead, lost, or still asleep. Indeed these lost souls need to free themselves to the reality of truth. We are already in Hell. Since in truth, hell is confusion and gehinom is in reality where the lost souls go to wander in darkness once their flesh returns to dust. Thus this physically world is simply one grade of hell and there are many.

One needs to understand the purposes of these levels of hell. Even though this physical world is one, it still is the beautiful Mother Earth and we need to respect her.

Imagine punching your mother in the face, or hitting her with a baseball bat. We would not do those things to the One that gives us life, so why do it to the one who sustains our lives while Present in this big blue monastery?

I had to learn all of these things in order to better understand one of the greatest worlds to describe our goal. Love. That was a word I long ago thought was a bigger myth then God. I recently started to sing a different toon. I write herein no words of Prideful boasting. I am but a child on this journey being forced to relearn everything I thought I knew, when in reality my understanding is but a small grain of sand across a vast desert. However I know I am on the true path, and in a short time I have come so far, but still have a ways to travel.

In summation, my family of the straight way. I am your brother, locked up in a prison in the flesh, but my spirit is there with all of you. We are not defined by our conditions but our works. I love You. And Peace be upon You family.

Jason